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03:39 am: I love my dream house.

04:26 am: You.
Been staying up late nowadays which i never do before, got all the naggings from difference people! I shall not allow them to nag at me again. Kinda weird because i dun really like to stay up late for no reasons, dumb reasons stupid reasons.

So, what got me staying so late? 4.14am.

Having crap cravings like chicken rice, mac and name all the nice food you can.

I should start to run from next week onwards and build my body, hand and leg! Cos seriously I need to plan my days well so that I won't waste them into drains.

Got a few surprises by human's superfastchangers.

I seriously doesnt understand them, i think is really freakin scary when you hear news like " wah the person changes to good to bad! ". I never understand why, but surely it was their thoughts and feelings that causes all these. This is why God told us not to live by bread alone, if you understand. I need to become who i am in God's eyes, i need to bring them out!

I always forget to end that 12am.

Hi livejournal, i kinda make you alive.

01:49 am: Goal, direction.

The land with so much milk and honey.

This is it!

12:07 am: Fire.
Thank God for today! Went outreach and sow with my new unit memebers, i really see how much they really gave to God and seriously i am very amazed and touched by them! They rocks!

I seriously thank God for placing me in their live and i am very sure that their lives, each and everyone will teach me something.

I can say that today is a very fruitful day because i went to outreach and sow which is something very cool (: Lovin it.

But i pray for myself that this fire will remain forever. I think God is doing something we cannot see now!

Jiayou VwestD!

02:51 am: New Life.

Some joggers run, some runners jog.
They ended up losing.
Unfortunately, I am a jogger that sprained.

But that was few days back.

I want to be a jogger that jogs!
I want to live a life that pleases God and not displease him.

I dun want to live a like a new believer, but i want to have a child-like faith that set a Goal.

Can't forget the goal I set for myself to become a shepherd or a care leader and now i want to have all these back again, my life got to be more than just dramas or friends.

I really thank God for the mistakes i made.

Time to improve!

07:27 pm: Plan.

Is your plan that I got to be part of the Vision.

If that's your plan, I will go.

12:01 am: Thank You.
After being 6months or so Cl, i really felt something and the true meaning of responsible.

Those good and bad experiences was great is just like having a roller coaster ride! Seeing people convert and stuff.

If i know the feelings of being a cl the more i should support my leaders!

05:12 am: Hell.

I've screwed damn badly! I cannot sleep at my perfect time and i am still here!

It feels like hell to stay awake at this hour and you could try to imagine I have to meet my shepherd later at 12pm and then later meet my friends to watch moive! Rocks to the max.

But I really thank God for making me awake at such perfect hour because If i sleep, i wouldn't know certain things which is good, however i am thinking too many things which is even more making me awake!

Just dun tell me this is life, i guess this is zombie world!

Save me from this hell yeah!

Am I a good person? Because if i am not, i am not living christ-likenes in me.

05:00 am: What's the Difference?
What's the difference between turn back the time and go with life?

Sometimes I'd like some turning back time, but sometimes I didn't wish too.

Turning back time - You can start everything all over again.
Go on with Life  -  You can learn your mistakes and fix everything back again. 

I rather learnt my mistakes but it seems like i didn't give my best to fix everything back into one Box that it should look like.

Forgivness Perhaps. 

11:31 pm: Break my pride.
I just discovered something new.

Time for new people, God is willing to pour.

Sometimes is my pride...

02:54 am: 3days 2 nights.

Unstoppable.

Again, i was thinking, what's my objective of Unstoppable? And then the next second " Love "
I dun think i grown much from that.

Actually, it's weird when i asked myself what are my camp objectives because now is just oct and is far from camp, but you know...

What's the differences i want to see between Unstoppable and this upcoming camp? Growth matters.

But anyway, this is like a wake up call for me that if i want my dreams come, i got to do something. 

I knew i disappointed God big time this again.

 

03:25 pm: Let's see.

I cannot fall asleep! 

To be honest, I felt kinda dry nowadays.
I try not to worry, but i can't.
I try to hack care, but i can't.

Sometimes is a joke when people tell you " Hey, I want to commit myself again! " and then you believe it and really hope for something  big in this person. But surprisingly you see this person tell you " Give me sometimes. " and then you go CRAP what is this!

and again

again

again.

Even so, when people tell me this, i really dun care, i mean why not just believe it since God never lose hope in us. But sometimes I get tired of believing in people because is really tough and is too much for my heart to take it, if you get what i mean, great.

But i suppose, this is what leaders should do too. To believe in somebody even thought he or she look quite hopeless, isn't it true that we are hopeless, but God give us hope again?

Everybody can be somebody.

02:06 am: If you Pray.

1chron 17:16-27.
David PRAY to God.

1chron 18.
David Victories.

1chron 18:13.
¹³ He put garrisons in Edom, and all the Edomites became subject to David. The LORD gave David victory everywhere he went.


Enough say, I still believe in Prayer that works wonders.
I pray to God just now, if you know me well, im afraid of outreaching alone, but I konw, God is with me.

This is the house of God.

04:47 am: I asked God.
It's funny when I actually questioned God with a powerful question yet is like duh thing alr. 

If you want me to build AES and spread the good news, TELL ME, SEND ME.

Sometimes, I dun think I am the right person, sometimes, I just think that is God's plan. And I have gone throught most of my  Sometimes moment. Perhaps, you'd say " Trust God! "

I gotta get back the calling, the fire!

20. sounds crazy, who cares? (:

01:09 am: Do you have second decision to make?

When you say, " God, take control of my life, all my life is yours. " Actually do we really mean it? Perhaps, we did or perhaps we didn't. A serious person will never make a decision base on his emotional and let's not joke with this, God is God, we are not. Allowing God to take control of our life is like marry to someone that will go throught thick and thin for a lifetime with YOU. So the question for us is this " Am I making this decision base on my feelings or rather, I am serious? "

But I seen people divorce and I seen people left God!

Is a joke whenever people told me about their promises and they become somebody else i no longer know, if you understand me, great. My first reaction will definifely very big but after awhile, i will recall their promises, maybe go to their blog and sometimes, i thought that they are just playing around because they are people who are really serious about God. That pains me most.

What cause this?

Let's talk about teenagers, like me.
I seen broken friendship
I seen broken relationship
Cherish. Because they never cherish. I think cherish one another is very important, once you dun, it won't last you forever.

I always never believe this " Because God is not close to me. " The reason is, we never give my best to meet God, putting afford to meet God. If you want to cherish someone, you wouldn't just wait for someone to call you, you will find your phone and start calling the person. So in fact, is US did not make that afford to meet God, we never give our chance to meet God. 

Is a joke to ask your master to feed you. 

02:44 pm: When burden comes,

I feel very burn up when i heard the news instead of discourage. But i am going to proof you wrong.

Action is deed.

10:30 pm: Never give up.
The thing is, i won't give up. I will give my life to protect my people, but do you believe? Im not joking.

01:13 am: Second chance.

Have you ever thought that God will turn back time?

Sometimes, I am just hoping that God WILL because I really want a change. True, you can change now, learn your lesson but isn't it all too late? 
Perhaps, the lesson for me is that, don't realise too late. I want to be difference! To care to love.

What's the point of earning money, getting gold having pretty girls and hot guys in your life?
They will leave your life anyway, soon enough you will regret what you are doing because you will come home crying.

I can't put down my thoughts clearly because, i feel for them.

11:20 pm: Blessing!

Alright, due to fb doesnt allow me to share my blessing, i got to come here!

This morning i went to school with much fear and also afraid of my N level maths. When i step into the hall because if you know me well, i never pass my maths from sec1 til sec4 term3! and the thing is i suddenly forget alot of things! even some formula i ought to rmb. And the most important thing like mean and median, I FORGET! I was like crap all the way, but! I started to pray to God, ask God for wisdom!

Guess what?!

God GAVE ME! He was with me from the begining of the paper! But then again, i wasn't sure if the step i do is right anot BUT i trust in God so i just whack! AND WHAT! I just found out that my step is correct! YES YES YES!
I really want to thank God for God alone himself! HE HELPED ME. I know this week i focus too much on my papers instead of God's wisdom and strength. God knew what i was doing, i dunno if he is piss off by not being a faithful leader this week or shepherd. But GOD REALLY HELP ME IS THE FACT! I think this is what true love is and i really want to thank God x10000000000000!

 

03:48 pm: You can't give without love.
I love slacking but i hate slacking at the same time.

Please dun be too confuse, my point here is I hate to slack for hours and i really thank God that ruijun finally ended her class! I can't stand stoning at home with the laptop, music and fan.

Alright, i think today's paper not bad 60%. I will close my ear whenever people are talking about the test and share their answers becasuse i might think that my answer is wrong when the maker haven't mark my paper. So what does this means? No faith, great. 

But i believe that whatever they share doesn't mean that it will  be100% correct, maybe they are same kind.  

Anyway, i really want to give my best to study maths later and i am already prepare to make ruijun stress because i will keep asking her whenever i dun understand, i will make myself understand 101%. Yup, i think she damn nice. LOL. okay i think she wont come here.


OFF TO DINNER ALR. Let's see. 3.58pm!