Chapter1.
[info]g_natay
Livejournal has been faithful to me, but I've moved to a new house called "Wordpress".

Catch me @ zealouslife.wordpress.com
Cus' chapter2 begins there (:

BYEBYE.

It's 4.47am
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Looking back at 2009, i guess if i work as hard like now, i could have pass my maths with unexpected result and if i play less, slack less i could have get a distinction for Maths haha well, perhaps?

Looking back at past 4months, if i could accept the fact, i guess i will have no problem with maths. Oh well, buck up, Ginatay!

I used to stop and stare at maths for God knows how long, but i can certainly say that at least now with the help of God and the seriousness in me, i really can do it. Well, 6 questions for 5 hours is definitely a joke but yeah, i did that but i believe there are more to come to my way and i truly belive that, i can do it!

I'm just gonna take this 1 year as a lesson process from God and through this 1 year, I believe in 2011 i will grow alot... Definitely alot more than 2009!

Let's do this together, God!
 



You can do it.
[info]g_natay

You just have to get on with your life,

and never look back.

What you have lost now,

God will surprise you with something better...

Just,

let go.

Trust me, 100 bucks is always better than 50 bucks.



5am.
[info]g_natay
Insomnia kills. So, I'm here again killing times.

Ignorance.
Is easy to ignore the ones you don't bother, it's never easy to ignore the one you cares. Sometimes you know that certain things won't bring any good deals to you, yet you hooked on it and when you realised it is already too late. So you start to suffer and doing stuff to distract your mind but you know that won't distract you long and what not? Suffers again. And then try so hard to cold-shoulder the one you cares, telling lies and then stop replying those texts because you doesn't one the person to misunderstood you but deep down in your heart you feel miserable, but again, you know it is for your own good. Perhaps this maybe a selfish thinking but you know only a hardcore way can help you to not to feel those miserables because you hate playing guessing games and you felt that is a mistakes if you keep doing all these stuff to the person.

Maybe if i say that it is a test that God has given to me and you will say that I'm insane but I think is a test that God wants to test me, trying to expand my spiritual life. Test is never easy, you fall into it and you get tempted in any ways but when you realise it you just felt that you're silly for falling into the devil's trap. I'm on the right track with God now.

I remember one of my friend reminded me not to fall into devil's trap yet she did it anyway... That's a moment of discouragement yet a moment of holy discontentment. She decided to persue a relationship that won't last forever, she decided to stay like that forever and she decided to live alone in the future. To love is to risk and God decided to love us by giving us endless test to expand our spiritual life... Never easy to be God I would say. Thank you God for being very brave!

Dear God, let me bring back my childlike-faith... the one who always bring a smile on your face.

Finally, I'm tired (:

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4 more days to ID conference! Expect big things from God... Bigger than any camp I went. I should really fast for ID because you see, I have such a big expectant heart that God have to and must fullful it. Trusting God and not myself (:

Went to my second fav place to study. Well, I realise how bad my english is only after trying out a few papers hahah screwed that! Gotta start to back up the two freaking subs in my life now, and in order to really hook up with the 2 dearly subs I realise i need to plan my DAYS AND TIME!

Let me think what I should fast.... Food is definitely A MUST.

I tried.
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Match today was great... I think i play badly man I watch the ball fly passed me when i actually i'm able to catch, well, screwed that. Alright, maybe is my first game but this can never be the excuse? But I still believe i can play well in the next game!

Okay so I slept freaking early last night at 9pm (: after watching failure to launch. Wake up at 12 plus am with a msg then i couldn't fall back to sleep but I did sleep anyway then woke up early prepare myself with a waffle! So after everything, we when to eat.

Talk about food. In my whole freaking 17+ years breathing on this earth, tried many food and tasted good food. I never knew black pepper chicken rice is freaking HOT... Okay but I never regret ordering that though.

I think i have sunburnt on my neck.. not pain but very red? Okay anyway I give up on formspring alr (: Glee - for losers.

I might have some problem sleeping tonight.

Something more.
[info]g_natay
Today was simple. Books, pizza, water, musics and TV.

Kind of hooked up with Oliva ong's songs. Man... her voice is (Y) awesome! But I kind of fancy Wen Yin Liang too (:
Alright, I should go and bath now and sleep so that I won't overslept for training which I can't wait to kill my fats!

Sometimes you're like part of my hair, it'll certainly drop day by day which bothers me alot.

Stupid sad song.
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I tried to sleep by listening to fm radio cos i realise my itouch is not much help for me then i happened to stop at 933fm cos the song is damn nice but is a sad damn song and then suddenly i realised one of a stranger came to my formspring asked me what's love. I couldn't give an perfect answer, i told the stranger love is unconditional it is without contract but i knew i gotta go deeper into the topic like explain to the person and etc but i couldn't get myself to do so.

So now, I want to define my Love.
Love is one who can give up his or her life for you, she/he must be willing to lay down one's arm for you and doesn't mind about your mistakes. I don't know if my definition of love is stupid or whatsoever but if you mean the world to the person, why can't the person lay down his/her life for you? Why bother about if you have bath or clean your teeth when love is also about accepting the person to our life?

So yeah, I hope my definition of love don't sound stupid but make sense cos I lied on my bed thinking about that too and then decided to come here lol. 993 full of love songs, i swear LOL.

Okay God just bless me.. now is 3.42am. SLEEP!


Fight for it!
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Wondering why I upload these unnecessary photos?

Let's go back to those times when we begged our parents for all these stuff and how our heart desperate for it.
I  remembered how my heart desperate for just one play station 2 and yeah... I knew my parents would come out with a condition but well, I knew they would just want me to study well so I told them that I will definitely focus my studies ( but who that its a nice? ) Apparently i only  can use it only on friday nights and weekends. 

Then God decided to invented this thing call PSP. 
So apparently, my mum unconditionally agreed to buy for me and I was surprised by her kindness. However, her kindness was bought from my chinese teacher and form-teacher whom complaint about how bad my chinese and maths is, but who knows? God then again, invented this thing call iTouch and I'm sick of using desktop so here comes a laptop. But you know, it was all my hard labour that paid off! But maths decided to betray me but thankfully there is my best pal called English who overtook maths to satisfy my mum's conditions and  then the end of persuing anything.

The moral of this story is that I'm going to persue something again and is none other than...

Dslr canon!
So going to shame on me if ever I'm going ask my parents to buy for me this. I know is super expensive but then I'm 18 this year and I really don't want to rely on them already but allowance still kind of needed them much though hahah. I used to think that dslr is just another camera with super good effects in it and my current camera also have it so why bother to persue it? Actually I don't know haha either do I want look cool with a heavy cam but personally I really like to take photos and edit them so why not! I think i decided to go to my aunt's company to work and save the money to buy! I hope the reasons of me buying dslr is not stupid if not I'd use this money for my future dream HAHA.

K chaos!



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I'm always surprise by what I say... here's a quote by me.

"Fast with a bad idea is always a bad idea to fast."

Well, I never know I could make such a quote hahah and no, I'm not showing off here but I want to thank God for he have given me such a slow brain to experience his extra-ordinary wisdom for me (: I used to think of why John C Maxwell could make such awesome quotes by himselve and also some other Book authors as well, but I truly loves to read books by John C Maxwell! Yes, I need to admit that my motives of buying his books was to improve my leadership skills but I also have to admit that he taugh me so much about life and if you don't believe it perhaps you should ask from me or buy one.

Speaking of book authors, I guess I have a new ambition? HAHA. I realised I almost everyday update once and they are super long post which I don't really do that in the past? But then again, I don't think I'm still up to the standard yet and also my english isn't that good as well but rest assured that I will never give up trying to be the standard of being a book author. However, it got me thinking what keep them moving on, produced inspiration words and how could they sustain by now? I wonder, I wonder. But I know that must be something called " Passion " that keep them going on.

Okay I should go now and sleep! Sorry for being too wordy but if you realise... which books have picture? (: If you get what I mean.

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